I want to say that it seems more scary approaching a "situation" than it is experiencing the situation. Somehow no matter what it is....i am able to handle it as it is happening....its effortless because its just happening! We have a tough time with the NOW. Death is one of those "situations" that i think will work out quite nicely in the moment. There is no way to die incorrectly....we can laugh, scream, pitch a fit, smile....the whole spectrum of responses are at our disposel. We are free to die as we wish....we cannot mess it up.
I am beginning to see that it is not my body that has the opportunity to be preserved, its ideas that can pass thru the physical plane and traverse time and space without effort. My body is only a conduit for preserving ideas. I am a temporay resevoir. My struggle is imagined. The struggle is remembering.
Eyes are completly dialated, i am fully coherent...my body feels tense...I constantly remind it that it can relax. It wont believe me sometimes, so i just coax it into submission with breath.
Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.
